落叶终于归根

这一趟中国•福州的旅行可不是什么的游山玩水，而是回我第二个家过春节去了
原来才发现还有那么多的家人是我不晓得的
这一趟可真温馨呢 虽然天气6度真是他妈的冷死
但家人的聚一聚都把气氛给暖和多了
当在福州机场一看见表哥和阿姨还有亲戚们，
妈都真个人都哭了，十年了，妈都十年没见他们了，
那一刻的拥抱，那一刻的亲吻，让妈都不在记得当时的寒冷


番外一：表哥亲戚用的车真是他妈的夸张，不是audi就是benz，还是一两百万人民币那种，


开了两小时的车程终于到家，迎接我们回来的不是五六个人，而是三四十个人，场面又是他妈的隆重死了，才发现这四十都是亲戚啊～

番外二：再回头望一望，哇塞，这是房子还是别墅还是城堡啊，怎么那么大，还跟我七八栋呢，介个比那个大，那个比那个更大，我家顿时变得非常渺小


还没好好吃中国的第一餐，就来了突发状况，表格在初六就安排了阿麽的100大寿，这可糟了，咋们的回程机票也刚好是初六早上，就这样，就在第二天赶回机场花了3万二的人民币再买初八回程机票，可亏大本！

番外三：还真是第一次吃龙虾吃到腻了！




虽然就这十天都呆在家，但从未感到任何的孤寂，这十天让我更了解家中的状况和背景，但这一切何家的故事都不是十天都能诉说完，这一切一切都在等待着我去聆听去回顾
终于第十天了，整家人不舍的气氛都变得更凝重，在送车的那里头，眼泪都不停落下来，外甥外孙们都一直在问：叔叔～叔公～几时还要再回来啊？纵使这一道问题打从第一天就开始问了～但就在最后一天可让我深思深思




在最后一天，大家都哭了

×今天，这只鸟还是要回到自己的另一个鸟巢，但它从不忘了那些在另一端等待他归回的鸟儿们～我会回来的～

我们再见

再过两天，就要离开这里
离开了那份安静但又不会寂寞的地方
离开了那份简单但又不会郁闷的地方
离开了那在城市中难以寻找的人情味
离开了那有城市中难以寻找的归属感

再过两天，就要来到那里
到了那人事复杂到快不能喘气的地方
到了那勾心斗角到快不能呼吸的地方
到了那忙碌操劳到快想躲起来的地方
到了那没有满天星点缀着天空的地方

曾经何时，
反复地告诉自己，
好想离开这没有电影，没有娱乐的地方，
但其实回头一看，
这一个月给我温暖的，给我娱乐的，
都是在家里盼我回来的家人，
在城市不曾那样幸福过，
虽然过几天这一切要结束了
但我会把这些深深地锁在记忆中，
无时无刻地在翻阅它，
提醒自己还有人在等着他回来，
这一切将会是让我努力地大学中度过的精神粮食。

玻璃市，I will be back .

寻找

结束了新加玻的辩论友谊赛（敦辩选拔赛），
虽然在junior的赛事中得到最佳，
说正的，他给我一个鼓励，很大的鼓励，
他会是让我继续向辩论发展的冲劲,
但我却没想到，他这么快就消失了，
真的很遗憾，我没被选为五月敦辩赛事的上场辩手，
我不知道真正的原因是什么，可能是我台风的问题，还是我还不够好，
我也不晓得，我也不会怪任何人，也不想去怪，
只能怪自己的表现始终得不到肯定，
很坦白地说，这是我辩论生涯的一种挫折，
我始终不敢面对，我看不见这挫折想对我说什么，
我还在寻找,,,
但别担心，我不轻易放弃这一切

可能到了某个阶段，我还在迷失这片森林，还跨不过那面山的话,
那我想我应该放下脚步，回头看看那出发点，
走回那个应该不属于我的原点。

关系· 玄· 现实

通常人都会说爱情是很玄的东西，
我认同这点，
但其实真正玄的不只它一个，
我只能说当两人处于一种关系的时候，
是玄的，
玄得让我们不同如何去维持这段关系，
玄得让我们无法去抓摸那对方的思想，
玄得让我们都无法在这关系中透过气，

我感慨了，
感慨的是友谊的关系，
友谊的建立的前提
是关心 是帮助
不是你们所谓的利用。

我又感慨了，
感慨的是你们的世界，
始终少了那一份，
是爱 是关心
你们永远都体会不到。

我再次感慨了，
感慨的是我想放弃了，
我找不到你的真挚
是痛苦 是失落
你的过去我要遗忘了。

我最后的感慨了，
感慨的是世界的残酷，
出现了不该的东西
是利用 是残忍
世界失去了那份美好。

但我珍惜了
珍惜的是那一份曾经，
那一份短暂的美好
是快乐 是值得
谢谢了我的那份真诚。

我不会怪任何人，更不会去怪自己，
因为我始终认为做朋友的原则是关心是帮助是分享，不是利用不是现实不是虚伪，
那你们呢？你们懂吗？

EXAM!!!

so bad , i an still in my holidays mood,
cant concentrate on my study ,
thanks to raya..hahhaha
but i think i should take some rest to relax,
just a few days wat ,
not the whole holidays,
let my brain rest 1st , so scared it would b malfunction during exam .

sigh , this 13 sep , i hav to drive bck alone to my beloved UKM ,
so worry , dont know whether i cant focus on my drive or not,
hopefully it will be a safe journey to me .
bck to UKM , i still hav to prepare my debate competition until october ,
exam is held on 25 oct,
its final exam for this sem ,
how i wish to finsh as fast as possible ,
but , for now,
no time to study and finish all syllabus ,
oh man , i hope that there's still 2 months for my FINAL exam ,


well, i m used to that ,(force to be,haiz )
after school starts , still a lot of assignment are waiting for me ,
IT , English for LAW, PBL ..
one followed by another,
hardly has 1 problem solved when another rises,
argh!!!
when i think bout it , i m going to faint ,
hav to induce myself theres just a few only,
so envy to those who r still enjoying .T.T
there is useless i sigh and jealous at here,
study is the better way for everything.


nvm , i knew that our effort will be pay off on 1 day ,
so , for now , i shall studu study study ,
don't think anything else except exam ,
after exam ,
hahahahahahahaha, its time for us travel ,
my coursemates , let's study!!

IF

oh man , i m totally going to be crazy ,
i have to pray evryday for letting me finish my assignment and syllabus,
as an onslaught by d law books n case,
i knew its a typical scenario for law students ,
seniors always ask us to relax,
but today was a lesson which ask us not to relax ,
wit that POP quiz,(brain start to be blank)
luckily , i was still able to ans a few questions,
if not,i will mati dengan teruk,
for now,its hard to take a breath,
theres just tension ,no others things in my uni.
i couldnt say that i didnt enjoy my course,
its very enjoyable though(bit bit la) ,
but i miss so many chance in other society ,
sometimes,i m rather sceptical about my intellect for entering this course,
sigh ...

sometimes there was a thought in my mind ,
if i dun take tis course,
wow,my life could b awesome ,
i can attend so many dance classes,
jive ,paso doble , popping ,samba , rumba ,
n organise the activities as many as i can make it,
but bck to reality ,
theres no such thing,
dont hav any time do to nonsense things,
i cant follow up any frens' update through facebook,
no more facebooking as last time,
thus ,enjoy tis july n august is a better way for making a best memory in UKM,
teach my college-mates love like this n nobody dance ,
teach FST frens run devil run dance ,
teach my coursemate about cha cha cha ,
teach my frens bonamana dance ,
teach my partner (faculty candidate) salsa dance,
practise nonstop everyday ,
debate as well..
yesterday i m just resigned my marketing executive pose in annual dinner committee
although its quite proud for being the delegate amongst chinese students ,
but no choice ,
have to do so .
i knew i knew its for my own good,
i dont blame anything :p
just wan to say something out .

if i m not a law students,
those above things would to b possible
theres so many unknown ..
but i prefer theres no any if in my life.^^

UKM

Finally i continue my study at Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia,
i m still cant believe for entering this UNI,
moreover is a law student,
"can i master tis course well?"i still couldnt find out a asnwer.
im just can say perhaps,

so,
its a brand new life at UKM,
its stressful life as well,
starts from 4 july ,
starts from d entering of law faculty,
i m just realised ,
its a fact though ,
my english is quite poor amongst those law students,
every1 is speaking with damn fluently,
for me ,i m not dare to voice out anything,
im scared those laughs from my frens if im saying anything wrong ,
if im saying broken english or with lot of grammatical mistake ,
its quite shameful on law students,
as we know,english is very essential to a law student,
listening skills,reading ,writting n speaking ,
without these skills,i m can just say that u r nothing ,
its quite comfort to me when teacher said my lauguage skills can categorized as good catogary,not excellent la..
i hope n wish to cope these probs within tis semester,(hard man :P)
n find a courage let me use english to communicate with my coursemates.

about friendship,
for 1st impression to my law coursemates,
i m just can sigh ,
somebody is looks very nice ,somebody is looks very arrogant,
theres a gap between english educated as what we called is BANANA and chinese educated students ,
chinese ed will hang out wit chinese ed and vice versa,
after 2 weeks ,d gap become less and less.
not really every1 is arrogant n wit that kind of attitude which i cant stand,
they r very friendly actually.
i m very lucky to meet my coursemates who r catherine ,li wei ,jia chun .pei pei,same college wit me.
nice persons as well..
i m very glad for having them as my frens,
n other coursemates also nice la...aaron la,.lim la..n kar may,,
of course chyaw yee is one of them..my hometown fren leh,,^^

now i just can use BUSY BUSY BUSY to describe my UNI life,
i knew as a law student shouldnt BUSY in ko K ,
hav to concentrate on my study better,
i m used to active in koko during secondary school.
but i m still can differ which job i wan to do and not to do,
so, pls dont force me n ask me to do tat i hate it,
sorry to do say that,
theres 3 things in my UNI life,
debate , dance n law.
nothing else.

after having my lecture ,
luckily i m still can catch up,
n understood wat profs are talking bout.
for now,i hav a interest on law,
i wish to b passionate wit law in future,
from interest to passionate...
study hard n study smart .
n practise my english n make it perfect .

sean

p/s : any grammatical mistakes, pls let me know,it could be let me learn more n more
,not just for this blog,whatver u see n whenever u chat wit me,pls correct me,thanks